YouTube - my creative outlet

If you've read the whole "About Me" page, you'll know I've always been super creative. I need to express myself someway, somehow. And YouTube has become that for me.

I always watched YouTubers from the original British stars like Alfie Deyes, Zoe Sugg, to then Suzie Bonaldie and Lydia Millen. I love watching them and their lives change and develop. I feel like I know them, like maybe they are my friends.

I actually started watching YouTube in 2011/2012 when I was living in Paris. My husband was out all day at work. And I would spend my days either exploring Paris and wandering around art galleries.. or watching YouTube. It helped me feel less alone.

Jump forwards to 2018, I had just been through some real shit in 2017 and we had just moved to Miami. So I thought "Great! A fresh start!".

(My top 3 videos with the most views)

So I started my YouTube channel and my videos were rubbish! I knew they were. But I also knew that in order to improve, I had to just carry on and get better little by little.

But in the summer of 2018, we went back to Europe to see family & friends. And at a social event with 10-15 of my friends from France, one of the guys mocked me for my YouTube channel, saying it was so bad, and so boring.

I wanted the world to swallow me up there and then. I could have died. I was mortified.

So, I stopped doing YouTube for 2 whole years as I was too ashamed of how bad my videos were.

(3 of my favourite videos)

Then in January 2020, after spending time with some of the most amazing people in Miami, I built up the courage to start again. To create more videos, to put myself out there and to learn how to improve.

Then Covid hit and the world shut down. My videos weren't good enough to get traction throughout that time while everyone was sat at home watching YouTube. But I carried on anyway and did so many random videos, just to improve talking to the camera, editing, scripting, thumbnails etc.

There's actually a lot that goes on behind the scenes of a YouTube channel. And so 2020 is when I would say I really started YouTube.

Some videos get a couple hundred views, some get up to 50,000. It's just a game of luck, staying consistent and improving with every video I create.

(3 very personal videos)

In 2023, I went a bit wild with YouTube and was uploading 5 videos a week, most weeks. Which is bananas. Especially while travelling and working.

But these days, I take it a bit slower. Spending longer on the edits. Capturing only the special & important moments and less of the mundane. Trying to educate about the places I visit. And for now it works and I enjoy it.

It's my creative outlet that has been with me now for 4 years and I don't see it stopping anytime soon!